Goals for 2012

January 22nd, 2012

As I move from 2011 to 2012 I’m following the same strategies as I’ve followed in the previous years which is to carry over some ongoing goals from the previous year. But this year there aren’t that many ongoing goals but quite a few one off goals which have been in the someday / maybe list if you’re familiar with GTD parlance. The general feeling is that there aren’t many big changes this year but a great deal of small increments and improvements which I suppose in total give a sense that something big is happening. It does feel exciting to be on top of things and be looking forward to all the goals on my list.

I feel very engaged with all of the things on my list. I have removed any that were only good intentions. This is another way to de-clutter and to focus on the things that are really important. If there are things on the list that aren’t really that important then they are a bit like interruptions which tend to draw energy away from the main focus. I hope this means that I will be able to stay wholeheartedly engaged with everything that I do this year.

Carried forward from 2011

  • Cycling 120 miles per week
  • Yoga
  • Friends
  • De-clutter
  • Java programming
  • Reading a book a month
  • Reading day

New for 2012

  • Regular cycle rides
  • Healthy nutrition
  • Speed reading
  • Blogging

Short projects

  • Blog revamp
  • Build a Hackintosh
  • Start straight shaving
  • Go for a proper bike fitting
  • Get divorced

Having listed all of my major goals for 2012 I’m now going to describe each one in detail. The ones that have been carried over have been discussed before but I will write something about them again because I would like to see how I feel about them now after years of being carried over.

Cycling 120 miles per week

During 2011 the average weekly mileage was something around the 90 mile mark. The shortfall was going to be made up by adding a few extra miles to my route if fewer journeys were going to be carried out that week. But of course that means a little extra planning at the start of the week. This makes perfect sense in theory as I’m already out there on my bike. But in practice this idea was only implemented on a few occasions. Why? Because my rides to and from work are commutes rather than rides. The object is to get from A to B rather than to ride and enjoy. I usually have other plans which cause me to curtail my ride and move onto something else.

An average of 30 miles to add to four commutes or eight journeys would mean an additional 7.5 miles per day. That means route planning to increase the distance of each journey. Not really ideal when the weather is bad or when I’m cycling during the rush hour. I can’t really see it becoming a regular thing. On the way to a class it wouldn’t work as I’d have to leave earlier and am anxious to get there on time. On the way home I’m tired and I just want to get home. So the best solution is an addition ride when I know that commuting isn’t going to cover the allotted mileage.

Yoga

This year my plan is to cut back on teaching yoga even though I’m only teaching five classes a week. But they do take up a lot of time and I’m getting rather bored of them. But there is a case of throwing the baby out with the bath water. This is the main reason that I commute into town and if I didn’t teach how much practice would I do on my own? There are also money worries too. I can’t just go ahead and quit a couple of classes as my costs are only just being covered by current income and yoga teaching is a big part of that income.

I’ve offered one of my private clients a free class every four weeks or so if they can do a session by themselves once a week. It doesn’t have to be a long session or anything formal as long as they spend some time doing a few postures each week. I’ve told them that I will follow the same goal as my practice has been rather slack. But again this is something that needs to be planned and given a time slot each week. Somehow I think I can manage one session as opposed to a full practice regime similar to my plan during the mid-nineties.

Friends

In 2011 I was merely thinking about the value of friendship and how important it is to keep in touch with people. Later into the year I was getting a bit annoyed with how much I seemed to be the one making all the effort. All the while I was looking for a way to organise my contact and also put my friends into categories in some way either by closeness or importance. I never implemented this idea. But I’m just seeing the importance of it now.

As I have done with my goals so can I do with my friends. Those with whom I feel a strong connection should obviously have the greatest priority and any that I feel aren’t really worth the effort should be classed into a lower level of importance. In this way I won’t really mind making the effort if that particular friend means a lot to me. I think what perhaps annoyed me in the past was that I was making a similar amount of effort at keeping in touch with all levels of friends. What I need to then is fairly clear: to put my friends into a set of categories and then keep a log of the contact and when next to get in touch.

I found letters from friends dating back to the nineties. Back then we used to write to each other. Nowadays it’s social networking so we seem to have more contact but actually it’s less of a proper meeting. I might even take the time to write proper emails.

Being so analytical and systematic with friendships can seem a bit cold or non-organic as though friendships should work that way but as I’ve found, most people don’t make much of an effort unless they are prompted.

De-clutter

This has been a goal for so many years that I often wonder if I ever get anywhere with it. But toward the end of 2011 I made some strident efforts and gained some new enthusiasm about it. Clearing out stuff and getting the place tidy so that you own and use the stuff that really matters to you without being distracted by stuff that isn’t important but is nevertheless given space and seems to sap energy. One of my goals is to have a clutter clearing slot each week which is another thing that has been on my list but never assigned. I did have a little flirt with ebay in autumn 2011 and once the routine is set it’s not too hard to list those items.

Java programming

This was the thing that caused the most upheaval to my plans in 2011. In late summer I began to catch up with the study again but it all ground to a halt when I got ill in late November and also took a bit of a detour having discovered a database course with Stanford University. They are rolling out more courses in 2012 and I’ve signed up with two of them. So rather than focusing my efforts on one thing I’ve spread the net out again. But I’m also now wondering how much I’m studying in order to get a new career and how much I’m doing it because it interests me. The rate at which I’m doing this means that it will take me a long time to get to an employable level so I might as well forget about that for now. What my friend said to me in February 2011 still stands, that in order to develop my skills to an appreciable level I need to focus and drop everything else. But I simply have too many interests and I lack the faith to commit myself fully to anything like this even though he has a lot of confidence in me. I like to stick with the familiar even though I am fed up with many aspects of my life.

I’m going to be doing a course in Cryptography and also Software as a Service. One starts in January and one in February. I’m hoping that I will have completed the website work that I have currently undertaken by then. I’m no longer kidding myself that I’m going to be ready to get a programmer job by the summer but I’m still keen to study. Once I’ve finished these courses I’ll be focusing on Java programming again.

Reading a book a month

With the purchase of the Kindle and being embarrassed about how little I had been reading this goal came into being and really took off in 2011. Later in the year I not only used the Kindle but also my Android phone and iPad. This one has been so enjoyable that I’ve carried it over.

Reading day

This goal is simple – one day a month reading at cafes or pubs. Sitting outdoors in the park or next to the river if the weather is good. This also doubles as a proper holiday when I leave all my normal work and chores behind, even my list of goals and tasks.

Regular cycle rides

I’ve joined Audax UK and this will be part of a larger project to try and shift my cycling from commuting to rides. One of these will be organised rides such as Audax or perhaps with the london fixed gear and single speed forum. I’ve been meaning to get involved with regular organised rides for a long time but just haven’t got around to it. The other method will be solo rides around London and just outside. As I explained in the 120 miles per week goal, I cannot simply add mileage to each commute as it only works in theory. To get myself to do that on a regular basis means just more London traffic riding.

Some possible strategies might be creating some distance groups as I have done in Sweden and bringing that mentality here to London. Once I have a shortlist of possible rides such as Orpington or Richmond Park then I can just pick and choose.

Healthy nutrition

In December 2011 after trying and failing to follow a healthy diet one bit of news from the doctor tipped me over the edge. Some people might have ignored this but when the results of a blood test showed that my cholesterol was high it was time to take action. I made drastic changes to my diet and cut out as much saturated fat as possible.

My diet changed from eating large amounts of buttered toast, biscuits, cakes and crisps to toast with oil, porridge for snacks and vegetable soups for dinner. Lots of oily fish was my Christmas menu. My plan is to take the questionnaire with the Food Doctor and create a more detailed plan but keep the main elements of what I have now. I love food and I love to eat loads but if it only took such a small scare to prompt me into action then it shows that I really did want to develop better nutrition.

Speed reading

I’ve practised speed reading techniques on and off for many years but have never really pursued it systematically. Now that I have an iPad and a speed reading app all I need to do is to create a slot for doing my speed reading. With all the books that I plan to read as well as articles and posts I think that this will be a skill that will come in very handy.

Blogging

My blog has been very neglected. In 2011 there were mainly monthly reports and not much else. I had a try at more freeform blogging with the “What went well” category during 2010 but soon lost the plot with that. I’m now going back to the original idea behind the my blog which is just me keeping track with myself. A set of private documents made public. The posts are primarily for me but shared with the general public. Where I was going wrong was that I was trying to create an audience or write for an audience and that just caused me to block. Whenever I thought about writing a post it had to match some sort of undefined criteria or standard format. First of all it was not clearly defined and secondly I could never meet that standard. I did have many ideas for posts but they either got added to a list or simply forgotten.

Since I’ve had accounts on Facebook and Twitter I do post a lot. Microblogging. I have an audience and so it’s easy to post a short line knowing that someone will read it. But lots of those very short posts could easily be expanded into lengthier ones of a paragraph or much more.

One of the other original ideas behind my blog was to keep track of the things that I was learning as a web developer. I’ve hardly done this at all and have found that I’ve had to relearn some things and look up the references all over again. If I had written down some notes on how I had completed these procedures then it would have been a lot easier. I wanted to use my blog as a repository of these notes but also other learning experiences aside from website development.

Now for the short projects or ones that aren’t ongoing.

Revamp the blog layout

This one has been on the list since my design site had a makeover back in late 2008. If the blog revamp does take place this year then it would make it 4 years late. My original plan was to give it the same look and feel as my design site but it doesn’t necessarily have to look like that. I could even find a template that is out there and use that. It all depends on how I want to use my blog and how I want to display the content. Instead of my users (if there are any regular users) I’m going to be focusing on myself. I have to imagine that I’m the only one using it as though it’s hosted locally. It’ll be interesting to see if I actually do it this year and how it will look if I do.

Build a Hackintosh

In 2011 I bought a Mac G5 2.3 dual processor model dating back to late 2005. That’s quite old in terms of computers but as Apple machines are build very well this one is a solid workhorse. But its main drawback is that it has a PPC architecture and many software developers no longer support it. Even Apple themselves are slowly dropping support. It’s all Intel now. I like to sit at my desk to work and I also like to have a machine where the hardware can be configured easily which means a desktop machine. The current models of the Mac Pro would fit the bill but are totally outside my budget.

I wanted to start developing Android apps and iOS apps so to get me started I bought an old Dell Optiplex machine and set it up as a development environment. With an SSD drive as the main boot drive and Windows XP it knocks spots off my G5 in terms of speed. This got me thinking. I have always wanted to build my own computer from scratch especially having modified many desktop machines. I would be able to learn a lot about how a computer works and get a computer that would just as good if not better than a Mac Pro for a fraction of the price. I would still need to stick to a tight budget as I don’t have a lot of excess funds but it would be so worth it.

Start straight shaving

Ever since I first started DE shaving what I wanted to try was shaving with a straight razor. I’ve done a bit of research over the years and have a rough idea of what’s required. I’ve been reading up on technique, the best way to start and sharpening. Apparently the closest shave ever and totally old school. I love the simplicity of it in the same way as I enjoy using a good quality fountain pen or riding my fixed gear bike.

Go for a proper bike fitting

In the summer of 2011 I had a made to measure bike made by Racer Rosa bicycles. Some of my wheel build clients spoke about this guy in Ealing called the Bike Whisperer and how he had changed their whole ride in just a couple of hours. I’m looking for that fine tuning.

Get divorced

I’ve been separated since the end of January 2009 and I think it was high time to make things proper and legal. A little research required but after that it’s just about getting a lawyer and incurring the costs. And that is what I need to weigh up before proceeding with this. I assume that costs will be incurred on the other side too and as the separation was fairly amicable I don’t want to dump extra costs onto my ex as a kind of retaliation. It’s not that kind of a break up and don’t really want to go down that road.

Now a short list of principles

Principles and strategies and ways to implement my goals. Some are carried over from last year and some are new this year and have been gradually taking hold during 2011.

  • GTD session
  • Being focused
  • Defining each goal clearly
  • Looking over the year plan

GTD session

Initially I used to have a weekly planning session where I would look at my to do list and assign them to slots that were available during the coming week. But as I have moved over to the more encompassing GTD methodology I am now having these sessions twice a week but also looking over my GTD spreadsheet on more occasions. The aim with GTD is what is called the “full capture”. This simply means everything that concerns you. All the divisions between various areas of your life are stripped away and there is just one big project which is your life. I’ve tried to group my actions but have found that it’s better to keep all of them visible as one big list. There are things that aren’t on the year plan but are equally important and they do get done. This is very encouraging so I’m sticking with it.

Part of the GTD system as well as collecting and gathering together all of your concerns is a reminder system. You have to be able to trust the system to look after your concern so that you stop thinking about it and that means that it will remind you at some point. There are quite a few reminder systems available both paid and free. I’ve opted for Astrid tasks.

Being focused

The ultimate goal, the goal above all goals is to be totally focused on what you’re doing without being distracted. The fact that I have so many goals (don’t we all) means that it’s easy to think about something else while you’re working on one thing. The phone might ring or you get an alert for a message or a reminder and suddenly your focus has shifted. So all of these possible distractions have to be put to one side in order to be able to focus on the task in hand. Any new ideas and concerns can be jotted down and filed away but quickly, so that the flow is not lost. Clearing away mental clutter so that all of yourself is fully involved. It starts off happening by accident and then by design. By careful observation we can deduce the conditions required to generate this state of mind.

Defining each goal clearly

Referring to GTD once more we have the concept of actions. A goal can remain vague and amorphous until it becomes a project. A project is simply a list of actions. An action is something that you do. Let’s take the goal of going shopping. This is a project that is made up of various actions such as creating a shopping list, getting money ready and carrier bags. It’s simple and probably doesn’t need much thought but without that thought you might end up at the supermarket without your pound coin for the trolley, no list and have ended up there during peak hours when you could have gone during an off peak period. So with all of my goals above I’m going to take a little time to define each goal clearly and develop actions.

Looking over the year plan

This is being carried over from 2011 as I did find it extremely helpful as a reminder of my intentions at the start of the year. It put me in the reflective frame of mind that was required to write a review at the end of the month. One of the things that I thought about doing but never did in 2011 was to gradually reshape the year plan as goals were dropped but thought it better to leave it in its original state as it was a plan for the year.

Monthly reviews

I don’t really need to mention this one except for the fact that the way I was writing this did change over the course of 2011. Instead of writing the report at the end of the month I wrote it all the way through the month as I was focused on each goal listed. This gave me a much more accurate picture of my performance and my relationship to that goal. I’m also keeping all of the reports under version control on a remote server and I can look through how the report developed over the course of that month. It’s about homing in on what I really want rather than what I think I want or perhaps ought to want as a means of being accepted by the world. Being yourself and following your heart isn’t easy when the tide might be flowing the other way. Close scrutiny and objective feedback are required to monitor this process to make sure that it remains authentic.

Summary

It seems that the GTD methodology is having a greater influence on my life and my goals. What I can see from reading through this year plan is that the overall aim is to clear away clutter and focus on what is important. Clutter in the form of stuff, ideas, goals and relationships. With the clutter cleared away all that is left is what is really important and there is nothing to distract you.

Clean up, clean up, everybody clean up

January 9th, 2012

My dirt threshold is quite high compared to the average person. By average person I mean all the people that I know because I don’t have any studies of what most people might consider a dirty room or an untidy room. Aesthetics and cleanliness are quite subjective, but the two do seem to go together. I hoover my flat perhaps once a week and mop the floors every fortnight or so. I rarely clean the kitchen or bathroom and am certainly not one who puts bleach down every hole.

A friend of mine asked if I would be cleaning my flat in readiness for my daughters birthday party. I said that I would hoover and possibly mop but grumpily replied that I didn’t clean for guests. When I examined this response I realised that I’m not against cleaning but having lived for 18 months with people who were obsessed with keeping their flat clean I did find myself rebelling against it. So much so that when I moved into my own flat by myself, I made a point of doing little or no cleaning.

Once I had thought this through I realised that I needed to reclaim cleaning and reconnect with it. I needed to sever the connection with those people who imposed the cleaning rota upon me. It was up to me to clean as little or as much as I wanted. Both hygiene and aesthetics are considerations but a third consideration is my own attitude to my surroundings. If I allow dirt and untidiness to build up to a point where it is neither hygienic nor aesthetically pleasing then it’s a clear indication that I’ve allowed things to slip. If I’m living alone then it’s for me now that I’m doing the cleaning and not for a fascist live in landlord. So if I say that I don’t care then what I’m really saying is that I don’t care about myself.

I did clean in the end and more than just hoovering and mopping. I cleaned the kitchen and bathroom wiping down all the surfaces. I put away many items that were currently not in use and even did some dusting of cobwebs. I actually rather enjoyed it and am very pleased with the results. I won’t make the cover of Home and Garden but atmosphere created by a clean and tidy environment feels so much more healthy and positive. Of course now the challenge is to keep it this way and it will act as a barometer of my state of mind.

progress report november 2011

December 10th, 2011

The month of November was characterised by illness. In the second week a stomach upset that was so severe that it required bed rest for a few days. Later in the month cystitis from the 22nd till the end of the month. Much pain, weakness, nausea and general suffering. Work ground to a halt and classes had to be cancelled. Just before this bout of illness began I had planned to go to Hastings for a photo shoot for a yoga book which of course had to be cancelled. I had planned to stay overnight in Brighton and catch up with friends which again had to be cancelled. One of them told me that things happen for a reason and this became a seed for reflection during my hours in my sick bed.

So what was this reason? The only thing that made any sense to me was that I have been wanting to quit yoga teaching. It didn’t make any sense on a rational level but if the power of thought can have any effect upon ones health this was a clear case of this happening. Probably since the time I started to build websites I thought about the prospect of quitting yoga teaching. But I have always held on to a handful of classes. I imagine because they are regular and give me a sense of financial security and also a sense of familiarity. Whilst I was at home in bed I got phone calls and emails regarding more work both from wheel and web clients. The past few months all I’ve been wanting is to stay at home, build wheels and websites and study. This gave me a little taster. Kind of spooky how it happened.

120 miles

Into the 2nd week and I managed to complete my quota this week with a total of 122 miles. This was without any supplementary mileage, only the normal commuting mileage. There was a trip to Walthamstow, to Racer Rosa to build wheels which had been missed the previous 2 weeks.

It’s very nice with the new bike, especially with the new hub on the rear wheel but I really do want to go beyond commuting. This year so far I’ve only been on one ride and that was just a trip to Richmond Park. So next year if I am to go on any longer rides I think I’m going to need to plan ahead a bit more.

Obviously in the final week there was no cycling at all.

Meditation

Three weeks into the month now and I just haven’t thought much about developing my meditation practice much further. Still doing the very short sit after the morning pages. It was starting to get longer but this month I’ve been busy, so as soon as the morning pages have finished I really have wanted to just get on with stuff. Still need to find a slot.

Yoga

Aside from my teaching I did very little if any yoga. The fact that I’ve cut back so much on the number of classes that I teach doesn’t seem to make much difference: I still want to be free from teaching yoga altogether. This of course worries me in that I might quit my own practice too. But perhaps I need to go through that phase for a short time in order to reclaim it.

Friends

I did manage to keep in touch with friends in spite of the fact that I’ve stopped chasing them. The real connections will eventually come back to you. Meetings and partings.

De-clutter

Since I moved into this flat more than a year ago I had a set of bathroom scales that I’ve been wanting to sell. I’ve just listed them on Ebay. That feels like such relief. I’ve tried giving them away but no-one really wanted them. They are too nice to donate to a charity shop.

Sometimes these small objectives just niggle away at you till they feel like big ones. Even though my level of Ebay selling is quite low I do feel that I’m on a roll now will be fully de-cluttering my items before too long. It really has been a dream of mine to trim down my possessions to bare necessities but the reality seems to be quite the opposite. At long last the tide is turning and it brings me a deep sense of satisfaction. It has been hard to stop the influx of stuff but the least I can do is to limit it and make a concerted effort to purge. Long may it last.

Java programming

In the first few days of November I got engrossed in version control systems. I had studied and researched the ideas a few years ago but hadn’t actually started using any form of version control but it became one of those things that ended up on my long term to do list. I was doing one of the exercises in Java 2 in 21 Days from 2000 and noticed that one of the examples didn’t work. It contained deprecated code so I changed it and it worked. I also changed some other bits such as adding an icon to a button. So the simple program had 3-4 versions and I just liked the idea of being able to go roll it back to the previous one. That caused me to pause in my Java study and begin investigating version control.

It became one of those frenzied days when you hop from one resource to the next continually asking questions and trying your best to keep some notes as you go. I read up on various pros and cons of subversion vs git especially as I had signed up to GitHub the week before. I got TortoiseSVN and looked through their guide and also watched a few video tutorials on YouTube. But the end of the evening I was all set up. Found a free SVN host and got a couple of projects under version control with a view to adding more. This post itself (and future ones) is under revision control.

I was impressed with the energy and enthusiasm I had and the way I seemed to shrug distractions and stay hungry for the prize. I suppose this is what I’ve been looking for in my studies; this particular state of mind. But I came across it by accident. I did experience it during my course at City University last year but my schedule was so tight there wasn’t room to just give into it. Now I do have the time but I just haven’t had this experience much. It was such a joy to be in that zone for more or less the whole day.

During the time I was in my sick bed I spent time with my iPad watching database design tutorials on YouTube and followed a course run by Stanford University. There was a natural urge to pursue this so I simply allowed it. Great fun.

Strength training

After a week of November I still haven’t done any strength training and have noticed big improvements in the flexibility of my shoulders and arms. Which of course is making me wonder about the benefits of regular strength training. The pain in the right shoulder is still there though.

Reading a book a month

Just finished a short story by Lee Child called Second Son which is an episode from the teenage years of Jack Reacher. It was my first Kindle store purchase for all of 99p as all of the previous ones were free Kindle books. Going to let some friends borrow it next week so wanted to test out actual monetary purchases.

Proper holidays

There was a plan to have a short break which was curtailed by illness. The illness itself was a holiday of sorts and an interesting time to think and reflect upon my life. I’m actually not too far from where I want to be and how I want to live and it wouldn’t take a great deal to move from where I am to where I would like to be.