arup’s blog

Sometimes when people ask me if I’m happy I tell them that I don’t believe in happiness. Happiness is nowhere to be found.

I stopped for a moment and listened - there was nothing. So I sat down and I meditated. This would be a time of day that would always be available to me.

Inside the case of the hard drive patterns come into being and disappear again over time. Form is only emptiness and emptiness only form. There are no videos, no photos, no music only these patterns of ones and zeros. And if you reformat the drive then it all goes back to zero. What we perceive is only a representation of text, of sound of image and moving image. And that representation is good enough for us to believe that it exists. But it exists only as a particular file format.

During my sit a few days ago I made it an exercise to notice what it was that kept taking me away from my object of concentration. I wanted to see if there was any particular theme or something that connected all those distractions together. Well after my short sit I did indeed notice something.
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As it has been a while since I was meditating regularly I have been experiencing some doubts about going back to it. Not a patch on my old regime of course but still requires a certain amount of commitment. The main doubt is all to do with why I stopped in the first place.
So why […]